well, good luck to all of you!

It is finally the second quarterly exam. Everybody is worked up to finish their project and works. Even I am cramming in a moment to finish this blog! Well, what can i do? good luck to all of the people who are taking tests this week!

i am a god

I've felt like a god when I'm playing a game that i can control every move of a certain things. Such as Devil may Cry. The game that was i must control character's move to defeat every enemy. But that really doesn't make me feel like a god. So the time i feel like much of a god is when i see something really smaller than me.
i can kill it, make it suffer, or make it live.
that's much of a god isn't it? well that's very ordinary thing but makes me feel like a god though.

most struggling moments... hmm

I have a very bad memory. Sometimes, I can't even remember what had happened yesterday or what day it is. So I can't quite remember when was my most struggling moments in my life.
Well, humans tend to forget things right? I think I'm the most gifted one if the forgetting things were a gift.
But, there are some moments i really want to remember, but I just can't. And there are even some memories that i really want to forget, but i just can't really forget about it. well, if someone look at it in that way, then i'm not the most gifted one in the world... well the good thing is that i don't remember my worst day and that is all i need to remember.

why do i care?

I don't give a damn about everything now.
well, at least for now.
because i know that I move on impulse rather than logic and long term planning.
but I've got a question. why should I care?
And most importantly, why do you care?

My short long boring break

i think i just wasted my vacation by just sleeping and playing games. I should have studied just a bit. But i didn't my vacation is full of regrets.

First quarter - remembering the days

My first quarter, to be honest, was a life of a party. I didn't even study a lot, and played computer games until sunrise from midnight. Well, I guess i should thank some guy i know for teaching me grade 11 math that i don't need to worry about math for a long time. However, others will ask me what about other subjects... well, than i should say that i have been listening during the class or during summer class. Basically, seeing my actions, i should be getting a very lazy grade, but i made it to the one of the top during the first quarter. And i know i'm better than this.

Greek mythology- my favorite god is....

We've been studying Greek mythology for like 2 weeks. The myth was interesting and origin was somehow similar to the one of the bible. And in my personal opinion, the greatest god of all time is Hades. Hades is a god of the underworld who... kinda... made... the... daughter... of Zeus.... as his... ummm....love slave(?). However, the thing is that the god of underworld is really an interesting and complicated job. He who became a god of underworld can't go up to Mt. Olympus and stay near Tartarus where so many brutal Titans are locked. Since he should stop the riot of the dead souls, he must be strong, which is why I like him. Besides strength, he is also cunning. He once saw a mortal who tried to take Persephone(his wife), but Hades used his tricks so that they will learn their lesson in their chair of oblivion. Hades is told to be ruthless and very strong, but to think that he even kidnapped Persephone because he loved her, is that he can also feel something warm. Hades is my favorite god and i want to say 'Go  Jerry' so that he will do his role well.

Why?

The word why is used frequently in this world right now. In Science, they ask why the certain thing happen. In Math, they ask why this is true. In English, why is important part of writing and speaking as well. Therefore the word why is very essential to the world that we live in. However, I ask myself why do I have to live at all? Come to think of it, I don't have to because I haven't a single reason to live at all and never had one before. So am I living by another person? The answer is no. Why do I have to care for other people when it's so hard to even take care of myself and they don't care about me neither. Now, I have a clear thought in my mind. I don't have to live, but I ask why to myself again. Why must I die? Well, it's not a must, it's a option. I don't have to live, but I mustn't die. But this statement contradicts. Wait... Why am I writing this anyways? Why am I suddenly saying of this bullcraps? The reason is simple. I just want to die. I feel very depressed. I feel extremely lonely. No one beside me is what suits me perfectly. What I have realized up to this day is that I am a walking trash that breathes Carbon Dioxide as I speak and live. If someone would kill me, i would gladly take it as a gift. Well, the thing is that when someone wants something desperately, that something will never come to that person. Since I want death so desperately, I won't be dead so easily...
















































if ever there is a god... please. let me die...

Waiting for November 1st...

Dudes! I heard that something exciting's gonna happen in November! And it is also referred as S.E. And i'm sure its going to be exciting! However for me, since I've abandoned my romance(really?), I'm not really excited about those stuffs. I'm not really excited about anything, just waiting for November pain to arrive...
I see November pain is approaching and I just can't wait.

The Stress!

The start of Quarterly examination is next week Tuesday and most of our classmates are in huge stress! (not all, only most... no, maybe some including myself) Everybody wants to get a good grade and so do I. However, for me, i have the gift from someone also called God, which is my very smart brain. But don't get me wrong, i too am human so i still study whenever i can, or feel like doing it. People never see me studying, but i really do study. In stealth mode actually... i have very limited amoout of presence anyways, so even though i don't want to do it in stealth mode, no one notices me studying. I'm also in pressure of the Quarterly exam, not because of my knowledge, but just because of the fact that we have our biggest exam in this First quarter. Everybody calls me that i'm strange, and i am. When all others worry about their grades, i worry about something else and gets higher grade then others(no offense guys, just writing whatever that's coming out of my mind) especially in math. i always sleep during math class and people ask me how the hell did i get one mistake in that horribly happier quiz. Well, its just that i had a lot of chance of studying math and that's it. i just took the chance. Just a little advice to everyone, just don't get stressed and focus on what's really important.

Dream

My friend is having a problem with what he's going to do after he graduates high school. I advised him that he should do what he want, but his dream is too big for him and won't fit in to reality and what he wants to do contradicts with what reality wants him to do. It's really ironic that people says that we must do what we want to do, but reality is stopping them. In my opinion, the statement that reality is stopping them from what they want to be is just an excuse for the losers who didn't study or do something really productive in their life. Humans are beings that can adapt to new environment. Not only humans can do it, even animals adapt to nature to survive. To repeat what I said in more direct way, people must adapt themselves to make their dream a reality. Do something instead of just sitting around and wait for everything to happen for you, but act. its really ironic that people doesn't really get this when they scream to others that they should do what they want to do, when people never do anything. My point is simply this. ACT or be a Loser

Rugby in the Rain

Rugby sure is a tiring sport, but it's also fun to do. Especially when its raining. However, if it's raining too hard, then its a whole different story. You slip, you fall, the ball slip out of your hand, and its hard to run. Jerry should be thankful, because he had that officer training or what so ever, he didn't get his cloth dirtied, didn't humiliate himself, and he didn't do a hard work. Well, i had some fun and so did others but one thing, why is it raining only on Friday? Last time, when we first had rugby practice, it rained. Then, the second time, it was kind of cloudy. and today, at last, rained again! what a weather! and it rained hard! god! it's extremely hard to catch a person or a ball when he or it is wet!

오랜만에 한글로 쓰는 블로그

아 오랜만에 한글로 쓰는군, 뭐 한국인이 내 블로그를 보는일은 없지만....
그래도 한글이 조금더 친숙하게 느껴지니 어쩔수가 있나, 난 한국인인데.
영어로 쓰면 철자다, 문법이다, 이딴거를 다 맞춰야되니... 제기랄! 한글만세! 세종대왕 만세!

I Remember..

The time I stood against my parents was when i was 10. I wanted to just stay home so that i could play computer games and relax, while when i go outside and walk around the mall will be so tiring and i don't even get anything to buy and... crap, i need to rest for the stress i had during the weekdays and going to the mall is definitely not relaxing for me.
so after that incident, well, nothing really serious happened.

can we make good relationship?

no, we can't make good relationship.....
















or not

The Joy of the long weekend!

Today is finally the last day of the long 4 days long weekend.
I felt bored until sunday, but on monday... yeh hey! felt so relived and relaxed that i slept for almost 10 hours! I've finally got rid of my insomnia!
Insomnia truly is something that a human should not experience. Its either you can't sleep when you are tired, or you wake up middle of the night. It really is a horrible thing. However, I'm now relaxed than ever and slept for long. I now have the energy to play more!

The Computer Exam!

The computer exam.... SO FU***** hard!
IT WAS SO DIFFICULT THAT EVEN I GAVE IN!
Jesus don't help me, because when i prayed, you never granted it but made the situation worse.
I'll hope for myself....!

Revenge - The Expression of Rage ending up in depair.

Revenge is a harmful action against a person or group in response to a grievance, be it real or perceived. It is also called retribution, retaliation or vengeance. Therefore, revenge is really dangerous. Personally, revenge is okay because everything, every action is based on one's choice, therefore revenge doesn't really matter with me. However, let's think, why would someone take revenge on others? The reason is that others have done something that would provoke their rage or anger. Since revenge is base on people's rage, it could also be defined as the burst of rage which was deep inside of a person's conscience. 

I had a feeling of vengeance a lot of times before, since i know that doing revenge would give me or earn me nothing, I started to keep my cool and became calm and started to be optimistic, which I am still working on, and generous. When you become calm, you can keep your head from getting over heated that you wouldn't do anything rash. Revenge is a work of people's evil part of mind. The potential of the human comes to reality and works on it to fulfill the person's want, like mass murderers. They never were bad in the first place, but their potential of being evil built up for many years of terrible events and after a vengeful emotion comes, the potential finally becomes real and makes people to do stuff.

Revenge, it is also defined as the true want of the spirit when in rage, but let's think this out one last time, what will revenge gain you? What is the real purpose of revenge? Is it because someone humiliated you? Or your beloved ones has been killed? Let's just think, that your father has been killed you someone you know and you can kill him anytime you want, would you kill him? So this is an example of revenge, then after killing the murderer, or taking revenge on the murderer, what would it gain you? To be real and logical, your father will not come back from the dead, but you will earn hatred from the beloved of the murderer, which will also bring another revenge over the another. So the outcome of revenge is only despair and nothing but hatred from others. I don't really care if someone puts revenge on me, because nobody I know will do revenge for me and I would know that I've done something wrong to deserve it. Revenge is something that really powerful, but peace and love is more powerful than anger and hatred. Let us stop doing something foolish and stop the shit bringing revenge.

global warming!

the global warming is the one of the most serious problem in the modern world.
now the world is suffering from economic, political problem, is all because of global warming.
the cause of global warming is because of polution, caused by the industrialization of the country, and dumping of trash in everywhere.
this can't be done only by one person, but many should participate in it!

Salviamo la Terra!

제길!!!

ㅅㅂ ㅈㄲ 이 ㄳㄲ 야 아나 ㅈㄴ 만날 ㅅㅄㅂ 거리면서 지들한테 뭐라고 하면 나한테 ㅈㄹ이야!
아놬ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ
ㅓ래ㅔㅓㅎ ㅁㅇㅎ[31ㅑ-0ㅕ ㄱ3423ㄱ5430[ㅕ{(ㅕ)@ㅅㅂ 이건 뭥미...ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ
this just became a cursing blog.....ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ

prototype

prototype, is an open world game like The Assassin's Creed series. the protagonist of the story is Alex Mercer, who was a scientist in a secret society called Gentek, where they research about genetics, alex is responsible for the outspread, but he doesn't know it, he gains memory when he consumes people and break them down to genetic level.
the game is really extreme and it is played when people is really stressed.
he can kill anyone and do anything. and the speed of the game is the fastest among open world games.

assassin's creed the brotherhood - ratings

assassin's creed brotherhood, the best open world game yet!
it can roam around rome freely and by destroying the borgia tower, you get rewards and earn each storyline! it is a really exciting game and i'm going to give 10 out of 10 rating!

its greatest fun is that a single act can make you to be Ezio Auditore himself and you will earn hidden treasure of romulus by roaming around rome and the vatican!

try this game! if you have your personal computer or x-box 360, or playstation 3.

the specs required to play this game is extremely high for PCs. at least 2 GB of RAM needed and 10GB hard drive space required.

the science competition and science research paper

such a tiring days...
i just got started with my chapter 1 of my science research paper, and yesterday, was a boring science competition in De La Salle University (DLSU)....
weekends which are not relaxing feels like shit!
ah... i wish i had some good rest...
and further more, there is another competition on February!
dammi tutto il resto ho bisogno!

The Last Supper(Jesus' last big dinner)

it is 'The Last Supper', drawn by Leonardo da Vinci(or not) this represents the last supper that was in  Luke of Bible. Jesus said, "the bread shall be my piece, and the wine is my blood."
but question, why is the piece and blood being drank?
this is very strange. why does he want his blood to be drank? and further more, its painful! if someone's blood is drank, meaning, the person is heavily wounded! the last supper is one of the famous works by various artists, but i really don't get it!

da vinci sempre!
viva gilda dell'assassino!(-by Ezio Auditore)

Eiffel Tower de France! take(wish) a trip to Paris!

You couldn't possibly visit Paris without seeing the Eiffel Tower. Even if you do not want to visit this world famous structure, you will see its top from all over Paris. The tower rises 300 meters tall (984 ft); when it was completed at the end of the 19th century it was twice as high as theWashington Monument, at the time the tallest structure in the world.

Allons à la France!

(souhaite juste, ne pas aller .... parce que je n'ai pas été là)

Eiffel Tower de France

the Eiffel tower! I want to go there.........
and commit terror! HAHAHAHAHA!(the evil laugh)

the statue of liberty!!!

this is something so called statue of liberty... she(it/he) is supposed to give liberty to everybody, but she's(it/he) not giving much of liberty to everybody. even in people of the USA!

my first blog!

this is my first blog
i'll post something......maybe neverㅋㅋㅋㅋ