March ends tomorrow night

Finally, the month of March ends tomorrow night. How exciting for the little kids. They grow older by a bit and for the adults... well let's just say they won't really be happy... Me? well, I've got nothing to say but I can't really say that I'm exactly happy. Surely, March last year was so much good for me, but you know what they say... What used to be the happiest memory could be the most miserable memory. When ever I think about coming April... I just can't speak a word. Every breath becomes painful and it sucks to feel this way. It's like I'm in a room filled with poison. I can't escape, the time is my only chance to get out of the misery... Ah... I hate pain, especially the pain in the heart. First I thought I just had physically weak heart, but it wasn't. It was indeed weak, but the amount of coldness it can take was a little amount.

God or People?

I've been questioning the existence of god for so many years and came to an answer why I'm questioning god. I actually wanted to believe god. However, people around me who says they are catholic or christian do something that are really unacceptable for even for the ones with no religion at all. That is why the world is getting screwed like this. I was afraid that I would live like them, not really disobeying the rules and doing something that are useless to the society, if I say that I believe in god. I really hate lying to others and further more, myself. I'd be lying if I'm a christian and I do those things that are unacceptable to the society. The problem was always the people not god. If god had anything to do with my questioning of him is that he made me live in the world there are full of chaos and grief. People are the ones causing the trouble. If god was the one who intended it all, then he would not be called the all forgiving.

To be honest, don't you think people making games amazing?

Seriously, I mean really, I think people making game is really intellectual, creative, and artistic individuals. See how they managed to make the game world controllable to every single player. To explain the game people's creativeness and intelligence, I first need to tell how they make games. First they think about how the game will go and the story for the game. It requires a lot of intelligence and creativity for the world of game is sometimes way beyond people's imaginations. For some games, lots of novelists gets awed and wants themselves to be taken by the game. That's why lots of novelists who published fictional novels are scouted to the game company and I don't need to explain to people that the novelists are talented individuals. After the planning of the game, the game goes through concept art design and game character design.  These are the example of the game illustrations.





And the concept arts.






after the game character and world design, they need to make it move. If you've used the word pad to make a webpage, it's the same principle. They type the codes in the word pad and they will save it as some other file name that only the game will understand and make it move as wanted. They set the items, character actions and NPC's (non-playing character) behavior. A famous game known for various NPC behavior is the Elder's Scroll's series, the most recent Elder's Scroll series is Skyrim. Where all the quests vary from time to time and when you do some actions against the rule, you will also go to jail. Just by explaining how game is made, we can see that the game producers are very intellectual and artistic indeed. We must keep on supporting game corporation and develop the game life until it gets better and better.

That's why if I have a chance, I want to be part of the game producing team.

Playfest

So the playfest is over...
wait, I wrote about it just yesterday and why am I writing it again?
well of course Ms.Mae asked the whole class to make a blog entry and put some pictures about it so here goes

Finally, It's over!

Finally, everything that we have been working for is over! Yes! I feel so unburdened! Well done everybody, well done! Even though I screwed up a little, well, Ms.Mae said We should not be blaming anyone so... We are cool right guys?.... guys...?

(beating sound)

Okay... 

I might have screwed up a lot but come on man, let's be cool for few days!

"sure man, we'll beat you up after few days."

ummm... Fuck you all guys.

but before I go and you guys beat me up,

Who was the one who found most of the sounds?

Who changed the sound plans just before the play?

Who wrote the play?

Who ran all day just to make the play a little better?

well I'm just asking man.

What are we going to do! (feat. Panic mode)

I still don't get why we are still not yet prepared for the playfest yeah-
uh huh~ yeah no, what? what are we going to do?
where am I, who am I, Who are you people!
just fuck shit up because I'm about to start a riot!
A riot!!!

uh yeah this is panic time, which I have never got.
It's time for you to freak out
It's time for you to screaaaam!

I still don't know what the F I must do yo!
we are gonna get fuck shit up and I'm really gonna start a riot!
a Riot!

I'm telling you It's time for you to panic!
yeah you suck!

Well What am I going to do?



well that was the song written by me and it was featuring a guy named Panic mode.
ah... so fucked up man...
what are we going to do!
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
PAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAANIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIC!

Another lie fills another day and so on and so forth

In the world we live, there has always been a lie that has been made up by people and sometimes it can really turn the world around. Well that is a serious shit. Lie is what makes the world go around? Wow, that is just so screwed up isn't it? So... the truth is not very important is it? Whatever, I expected nothing from those people and myself. They say there are lies that are good, but the truth is actually what's going to come for them in this case. Never has a world seen a people who was so generous and honest as Jesus Christ, although I don't really know he really was an existing man and stuff, and has the world been so caring about what the world is truly going on. The truth is always so vague and hidden away. Such as Americans believing that Afghanistan people likes American. Well that's a lot of bullshit... They are not doing anything serious for the sake of their sorry ass and those people really require help. Well something like this is the truth and we are always inconsiderate about the truth and believe the lie that was told to them was actually the truth. It is always lies that fills the world each and everyday. This is such a fucked up situation but what's more important is the insight to see the truth.