Playfest

So the playfest is over...
wait, I wrote about it just yesterday and why am I writing it again?
well of course Ms.Mae asked the whole class to make a blog entry and put some pictures about it so here goes

Finally, It's over!

Finally, everything that we have been working for is over! Yes! I feel so unburdened! Well done everybody, well done! Even though I screwed up a little, well, Ms.Mae said We should not be blaming anyone so... We are cool right guys?.... guys...?

(beating sound)

Okay... 

I might have screwed up a lot but come on man, let's be cool for few days!

"sure man, we'll beat you up after few days."

ummm... Fuck you all guys.

but before I go and you guys beat me up,

Who was the one who found most of the sounds?

Who changed the sound plans just before the play?

Who wrote the play?

Who ran all day just to make the play a little better?

well I'm just asking man.

What are we going to do! (feat. Panic mode)

I still don't get why we are still not yet prepared for the playfest yeah-
uh huh~ yeah no, what? what are we going to do?
where am I, who am I, Who are you people!
just fuck shit up because I'm about to start a riot!
A riot!!!

uh yeah this is panic time, which I have never got.
It's time for you to freak out
It's time for you to screaaaam!

I still don't know what the F I must do yo!
we are gonna get fuck shit up and I'm really gonna start a riot!
a Riot!

I'm telling you It's time for you to panic!
yeah you suck!

Well What am I going to do?



well that was the song written by me and it was featuring a guy named Panic mode.
ah... so fucked up man...
what are we going to do!
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
PAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAANIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIC!

Another lie fills another day and so on and so forth

In the world we live, there has always been a lie that has been made up by people and sometimes it can really turn the world around. Well that is a serious shit. Lie is what makes the world go around? Wow, that is just so screwed up isn't it? So... the truth is not very important is it? Whatever, I expected nothing from those people and myself. They say there are lies that are good, but the truth is actually what's going to come for them in this case. Never has a world seen a people who was so generous and honest as Jesus Christ, although I don't really know he really was an existing man and stuff, and has the world been so caring about what the world is truly going on. The truth is always so vague and hidden away. Such as Americans believing that Afghanistan people likes American. Well that's a lot of bullshit... They are not doing anything serious for the sake of their sorry ass and those people really require help. Well something like this is the truth and we are always inconsiderate about the truth and believe the lie that was told to them was actually the truth. It is always lies that fills the world each and everyday. This is such a fucked up situation but what's more important is the insight to see the truth.

Church really does not help

The church is where people, specifically people so called Christians, gather and the priest, or pastor makes them believe in Jesus Christ or there Lord. And since there are lots of people in that place, it would also seem that it would be a good place to begin a meeting with people, but my thought was horribly wrong and was so unhelpful for my health as well. I used up my health to listen to the boring voices of the pastor which makes me fall asleep. Everyone doesn't talk even after the mass is over... How boring is it to go there! Ah! It is no good... I'm not even a christian and I am even forced to go there, I have no choice, even if I refuse to go, they will get mad at me and start dragging me there, they bring up things that I don't want to do and then what....

What would I be without you?

Ah love... The most abused word that arouses all kinds of emotions. It calls for happiness, it arouses anger, jealousy, envy, dilution, screwed up thoughts etc. But what would the world be without that simple word 'love'? Well, people maybe would have thought of a nice replacement for the word because humans are smart. However, it might also lead to extinction because people wouldn't have any ways to excuse themselves from desire for sex in a sound and romantic way. Well you can't just say "I want to have sex with you" can they? No that's very improper. However the culture may change that being frank about wanting for that "something" is very romantic. So I guess the word "love" doesn't mean that much to people. They abuse the word. I love you, I love you... I hear that everyday of my life and I am tired of hearing those lies.

Ummm... what am I doing...?

I was playing Assassin's Creed 2 (which was out about more than 3 years ago) and now I'm  writing my blog. Well, I guess it's time for me to re-think about my past lives. First of all, I'm the eldest child in my family and the first grandson of my grandparents... Which means I get high expectations from my family members and sometimes pressured by it. Also I have a very sensitive mind that I get easily hurt like last time I broke up with a girl ended in disaster. I lost my appetite for more than 3 months, I still had to keep my grades higher than before and I still needed to concentrate on many things that required a lot of mental and physical energy. Well what do I get from all those? Obviously it's stress. A huge amount of stress. That got me so far to say that I've started to think that I should end my life at the moment. The part that I got in a conflict was the sense of responsibilities and world wide crisis. I had the responsibilities to do my duties as a human being, as a son and as a goddamn student. And the world doesn't really need many people right now because the more people there is, the higher the level of competition. Now from that point, I thought, 'Why do I even have to live since the world doesn't really need me?' kind of shits. On the other hand I thought I should live up to what other people demands. Keeping other's demand was what drove to live at that time so it was a very difficult dilemma for me. It was always about others for me wasn't it? Trying to give people what they want, which is only high grades, not getting into any troubles? Well that certainly went well and still they are not satisfied. So now what? Whatever I'd tell them to fuck themselves since you are never satisfied. It was such a hard time indeed. After the hard times, I told the world this,"Whatever, go fuck yourself. I don't care what you become. You just can't stop fucking yourself can't you? Well that's too bad because you are the world that is full of assholes with no dicks between their legs." and now, I am not living at all. It's just me tic-toking like a toy trying my best to make people happy which they will never gain from me.