another week ends...

So, another week has passed and nothing is achieved...
That's just great. Yes, it is just so f***ing great...
And whenever bad thing happens, it's always my fault and no one ever thinks why. It's because they take it for granted that i will just laugh away and live on with it.
I kept running away to achieve my goals and satisfy myself but whenever i look back, I'm always at the same point. Nothing has been achieved so i stopped running. I see people doing the same thing that i was doing. That's so stupid. They don't know that doing that doesn't make a progress. However, because of these stupid people, the world becomes a better place. If the intention of their run is good. That's what i feel during my exercise every night.

I know better that I have nothing to expect from the others

Letter to myself.


never dear me.

Not a very bad day huh?
well you expected too much from something you knew that there won't be nothing much.
you know very well that you can never be there and you knew that long time ago

don't know what to do now

I had this certain feeling that I should be the judge that will not be blinded. However, now my oath is being shaken. I worry about the future. Even if i get my ass to studying like hell, the competition rate goes higher everyday and the economy is going off to someplace which i really don't understand. How will i ever be in peace with such an obscure future ahead of all of the people. With this, mankind is going to be ruined in a matter of few years. So what can i do? nothing.

Wow! It's been a long time since i wrote this thing!

hi everybody!!!!

well, good luck to all of you!

It is finally the second quarterly exam. Everybody is worked up to finish their project and works. Even I am cramming in a moment to finish this blog! Well, what can i do? good luck to all of the people who are taking tests this week!

i am a god

I've felt like a god when I'm playing a game that i can control every move of a certain things. Such as Devil may Cry. The game that was i must control character's move to defeat every enemy. But that really doesn't make me feel like a god. So the time i feel like much of a god is when i see something really smaller than me.
i can kill it, make it suffer, or make it live.
that's much of a god isn't it? well that's very ordinary thing but makes me feel like a god though.

most struggling moments... hmm

I have a very bad memory. Sometimes, I can't even remember what had happened yesterday or what day it is. So I can't quite remember when was my most struggling moments in my life.
Well, humans tend to forget things right? I think I'm the most gifted one if the forgetting things were a gift.
But, there are some moments i really want to remember, but I just can't. And there are even some memories that i really want to forget, but i just can't really forget about it. well, if someone look at it in that way, then i'm not the most gifted one in the world... well the good thing is that i don't remember my worst day and that is all i need to remember.